Many a time, I have wondered what it would feel like to just get up and leave;
Leave the life I know behind,
Leave the limitations behind,
Leave the huddles I encounter everyday,
The depressions and lack,
To leave and travel towards a safe haven
Towards the better life that’s always been out of reach,
Towards happiness that seems to always find a way to elude me.
I’ve been dreaming of leaving.
Of seeing new places and new faces
And learning new things
I’ve been dreaming of living
Of putting aside the fears and anxiety
And start living and not just exist.
I’ve been dreaming of loving
Of letting go in another’s arms
And allowing someone else in.
I’ve been thinking a lot of late
Of life and the future
How everything I want in life seems to be hidden in the future
How much I have dreamed of a better life
And how little I have acted in order to get it
I stopped dreaming…
For I realised how much dreams I’ve dreamed.
I started living…
For I realised that’s the only way those dreams would ever become reality.
I stopped wondering how it would feel like to leave;
For I realised being here wasn’t the problem
Rather, being here and doing nothing but wonder was the problem,
So instead of leaving, I started living.
Now the dreams I dreamed long ago are becoming reality
And the ‘wonderings’ I’d bottled up in me
Started manifesting, when I gave up fear and the limitation it brought.
And now I’m not just living each day, I’m learning to live better.